In the absence of the legal case, even the continual cycles of highs and lows is typical for many of us. But I have no idea what I would do if I was faced with financial ruin and a multi-decade no-computer-access prison sentence. My entire life revolves around computers and has done so for 20+ years since I was 10. I changed schools, moved away from loving family, left high-paying jobs, and gave up financial security just to continually pursue the singular passion of my life - programming. The thought of not being able to program is my version of hell. If you tell me I can't code for the rest of my life, I might as well not exist.
As irrational as someone else's suicide always appears, I fail to see a rational response to being in a situation where 10 years of imprisonment is the best possible outcome.