First, let me say that I am so happy that the OP is doing better.

We'd love to join forces with the OP (and anyone else) to "found a help network for hackers." We actually have online discussion already planned on March 20 to begin this process:

http://workshops.cojourneo.com/workshops/Surviving-the-Start...

It features two "legends" who are uniquely experienced to guide these efforts: Parker J. Palmer & Jerry Colonna.

Everyone is invited. I'd love for the OP or anyone else to contact me at kevin@cojourneo.com if you'd like to join forces. We can make a difference together.