Ask HN: Why can't I get started?
But even when I know I want to, I can't do it. The knot inside me inarticulately roars at me, and I walk away. I do something else instead. Something which doesn't create anything. I consume. I read. I play games. I read Hacker News on my iPad. I watch TV.
If by some good fortune I manage to sit at the computer, I find that I have achieved nothing. I'll have thought "I'll store the data in a database", and then tried to download and install mysql or mongodb, or postgresql, which I don't really know how to use, and I think "I'll write it in python", or "I'll write it in Cocoa for iOS" which again, I don't really know how to use.
I need to learn some of these things, but all I want is to get something finished, these things hold me up on things that I know should be almost trivially easy. I've been a Windows programmer for nearly 20 years, but I desperately want to be good on the Mac.
I know that if I just sit down for a few hours a day, these things will melt away as I work on them, but I just can't get started.
But I can't start. I wish I could. I organise days when I know I'll have no distractions, and then I squander them on worthless nothings.
Why can't I start? Any ideas? I have none.