I suppose that part of the problem is that I hate to talk about my failures with other people. I also hate to talk about successes: I am more of the "see what I have accomplished" kind - I like to show things, not to talk about them. But showing failures is very awkward.

My family and friends are correctly guessing that I am not having a great time, but I am quite dismissive about it. And I manage to avoid talking about it because in general I am quite a positive person, and I still manage to have fun when I am with people (mostly). I have just this very important thing (to me), which is failing and dragging me down with it.

Thanks for your prayers (I am atheist, but thanks anyway). We are geographically closer that what my article suggests, but I prefer to keep it vague.