Firstly, depression is a serious mental illness with well studied chemical and therapeutic interventions. See a psychiatrist straight away. A few pills may really help your cause.

Sign up for Medicaid (http://www.hfs.illinois.gov/medical/apply.html) and/or talk to the the Cook County Health System psychiatry department (http://www.cookcountyhhs.org/tag/psychiatry/)

I’ve read the Bible and Qur’an front to back 5 times each. They hold no meaning to me.

I've run into some hardline Christians and Mormons in the Chicago software scene and writing that could very well have made you stone cold dead to them. Is your old boss from Wheaton, Illinois or nearby? That seems to be their headquarters.