You have to understand that anything in this world is seen by me as a dream. God is all there ever has been and will be and created the Sonship (us). Our "fall from heaven" was when we wanted to be God ourselves and thus break free from his rule. In order to do so, it meant opposing everything that is true in His domain -- oneness replaced with disparity, life with death, eternity with time. This is the hell the Bible speaks of. You "burn" in desire by "selling your soul" (believing and pursuing..) for things the "Devil" (your ego) offers yet none of it ever seems to satisfy. Why is that? Why is hatred more commonplace than love?
You cannot destroy heaven and so you dream of these things. We're all helpless victims and if there is a God, he is a cruel master. This isn't the way and creates a lot of sadness and unnecessary conflict in the world.