Both right. Sucking at something is the first step to being kind of good at something. At the same time doing that in a professional environment sucks for your coworkers
I have aphantasia, after psychedelic experiences for the next few nights I see small poorly defined things when falling asleep. I don’t enjoy it and the idea of seeing things all the time sounds exhausting. I also have a slight astigmatism and prefer not to wear my glasses because the details of perfect vision are tiring.