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I managed until I didn't, and the admin was what got me in the end - 10 years later I was diagnosed with adhd so I could at least forgive myself for being so absolutely awful with record keeping.

Back in the day though I used outlook calendar entries as the basis for my billing as I used windows mobile on a motorola flip and had sbs2003 running exchange with a custom app that would read the calendar entries and let me assign to a customer and create an order - once I had a number of orders I could create an invoice and send via email.

So you've seen my DIY attempts already? :)

I'm autistic and I see patterns and issues with misaligned patterns which cause psychic pain. Also phase issues with sound because it feels physically painful.

This is what causes me absolute task initiation paralysis - the fear of not being perfect - even with my new attempt at adherence to "don't let perfection be the enemy of good enough"

Does anyone else who comes into the house notice anything? Very unlikely unless they are craftspeople.

> It is important to note we did not include clinically diagnosed autistic participants

Nothing about us without us.

When I was younger autism wasn't called autism - it was blamed on mothers who worked, "refrigerator mums". Doesn't change the fact that I'm autistic though.

Apologies if you've already discounted this, but serotonin syndrome came to mind when I read this.

That sounds interesting, never thought to use this - is it like aquafaba so it also works as a thickener?

I used saxenda, and now mounjaro - I've always struggled with food noise and I don't think many non obese people are aware of how life consuming this is.

All I used to do was wake up and wonder what food I was going to have, when I was going to have it, how much. It's like that ruminating voice in your head when you're depressed - it's just there all the time constant.

On these drugs it's just not.

I always thought it was because it's a ratio of how long we've been here, at 10 a year is an eternity, it's 10% of your life - you could do so much during the 6 weeks of summer holiday.

At 48 a year is just over 2% of your life, it's so fast almost supersonic.

I may see if I can find a sample of an old BBC Model B floppy being accessed.

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The constant hope that "tomorrow I will go out and do the thing!" followed by the self imposed guilt of "why can I not just go out and do the thing."

> The people with ADHD aren't a problem, the unnatural world we've created is the problem, and we risk losing an important part of the larger organism that is civilization if we force these people to conform.

This is pretty much what the social model of disability pushes: if society changed with a thought for all some of us wouldn't be as disabled - in my specific case reducing bright lighting, reducing noise pollution, and reducing specific smells would help me a stupendous amount.

I'm really bad with sound sensitivities, but magnesium helps make them less sharp and painful, great for helping me get to sleep also. It can give me erectile dysfunction though.

Another autistic person put me on to magnesium, their reckoning was that it could be an ion channel issue.

I was hired as a co-researcher by a local autism research team, and the first thing we did was research what autistic adults would like to see researched, ie what problems have we come across that we feel need investigating.

This was the first time _we'd_ been asked.

Yes, exactly my thoughts - and they seem to use lower spec hardware leading to a perceivable delay between scanning -> putting on to weighing station -> able to scan next product.

Unless this is as designed too, for whatever reason, but this is what stops me from using them as I get frustrated.

The other thing that stops me from using them specifically in Lidl is that you cannot put a hazelnut croissant and an almond croissant in the same paper bag unless you take one out before you put it to weigh.

It's absolutely disgusting, and it may also allow a murder to go free (or someone incorrectly jailed for murder if you believe them).

Also, strange seeing my hometown mentioned on here!

It was a little like this with tape loading games - you had 10 to 15 minutes (an eternity when you were young) to do something, and that's if you were lucky with tape head azimuth and you didn't knock the joystick controller - if there was a manual you read that every time, I even remember reading the copy protection sheets over and over again.

So I was actually healthier before I cut out peanut m&ms?

(My diet is better than it was, but still garbage. I have a mix of fibres that I take daily with psyllium husk, chia seeds, and glucomannan)

Ex and I tried it until we were at a point we could sell, but then things got worse and I moved out after about 3 months.

It's really tough when you add conflicting emotions and that feeling of limbo into day to day living - especially when there are now blurred lines of how you used to interact vs how you should interact.

I have quite vicious migraines, and have regular painless aura migraines that feels like I have a huge number of paparazzi behind me with random flashes, wonder if you're experiencing something similar?

Or perhaps your brain listens and doesn't quite catch the header, so audio is played mid-stream and you get the digital noise playing like you're trying to listen to a tape loaded game.

I've had this a couple of times - first time was terrifying as I was a young teenager. Second time was quite recently, almost 35 years later.

No idea what's caused it at all - sounds like someone has suddenly opened a pressurised pipe near my head/ear.

Toggle at least 5 or 6 items and experience what it's like to have auditory processing disorder!

Going to give this early EMDR a wee try later.

adhd sucks - i bought one of these pedal boxes so I could exercise while watching tv (i know, better than nothing though) and it was great until I moved it out of the way, now I can't see it I don't do it, and I remember when I'm not in front of it, think "oh i'll put it back" and then instantly forget.

Ach I'm almost 50 - my bladder wakes me at half 5 these days anyway :)

Just before covid I'd planned to fly from Scotland to Italy to see where my grandma was from, and then get the train back to Amsterdam via Switzerland, Germany, Belgium stopping for some food and sightseeing on the way back.

Covid scuppered that, but it's something I'd love to do - even with my recurring dream of being awoken to pitchforks from the rest of the sleeping train thanks to my snoring!

I'm waiting for diagnosis of me/cfs or long covid, although it could be some kind of allergy fatigue as my symptoms are much more severe during april to late october.

Been looking at pushing the button to buy some niacinamide for a while now and I may have to go for it to try.

All the best for you!

Percussive maintenance has vastly evolved from shunting aged components!