I mean, I got the ideas behind it and could talk with my professors about it, but I couldn't solve much of these equations.
It was a strange time at university...
I even helped friends to get these exams done, but I myself always failed. Luckily we only had one math lecture about calculus, the 4 others were about different stuff.
And it was always the fundamentals which got me. The whole rearranging an equation stuff all the school life is about totally eluded me. And this is what the calculus exams were about. At least the professors saw that I got the other math exams right, so they knew I wasn't an imbecile, haha
That's when it all came together.
Physics felt like the word problems you'd see in elementary school math. Ie, taking the concept from a theoretical 3+4=? to "Jim has three apples and Mary gives him four more, how many does he have?" And bringing that to calculus.
The "aha"-moments I got in "computer graphics", "audio engineering", and "artificial intelligence"
And Taylor expansions too. My high school calc teacher just put the equation on the board for Taylor series one day. No explanation where it came from, or how to think about it. When I asked if he could 'prove' it to give some context and make it seem less like black magic, the other kids in the class said "I'm sure the formula's right if it's in a textbook". But I didn't care about it being right, I cared about seeing where it came from.(and it's not that hard to derive actually). Taylor expansion is like the screwdriver of physics, it's used everywhere.
Other than calculus, matrices also didn't make much sense to me until physics. Eg, why is matrix multiplication so complicated, and what do these things actually represent? Especially opaque was the concept of eigenvectors and eigenvalues, until we used them prolifically in quantum mechanics.
As someone who feels "closer" at this point to applied math than pure math - largely, because it is literally more tangible - I admit a fascination with pure math, as if it were the human pursuit of universal beauty, in its ineffable, permanent and probably unattainable form. And that same pursuit of reason and order has brought renown & fame to some, but mania, loss to many. It's both the pride of humanity and terrifying, in equal measure. Like staring at a Van Gogh, and finally perhaps realizing how marvelous, impactful, insightful the statement the artist may have intended to make, yet from such humble circumstances, and with so few tools.
"You are on an island, which is 10 miles from the shoreline. You can row a boat 4 miles an hour, and you can run 7 miles an hour. You have a friend in need that lives on the shore, 6 miles down from the part of the (straight) shoreline that is closest to the island. Where on the shore do you need to land the boat to minimize your travel time?"
So obviously, aiming the boat directly to your destination minimizes your distance, but you are only going to be traveling at 4 mph. And if you aim straight to the shore you minimize your time in the slow boat, but your distance is longer. The visual solution is to plot the total time based on various landing points on the shore, then find which one is minimal. The exact solution is to make a formula that represents both legs of the trip with the landing point being your variable, take a derivative of the formula and solve for 0 (if I remember correctly).
Funny thing is, if people who learn about software engineering ask me "why" I often know the answers. But I wouldn't know how to start teaching someone this topic...
Linear algebra was one of those parts of math that I understood rather fast.