I guess that's one nice thing about chemo that doesn't make you lose your hair, cancer isn't really part of my public identity. Of course my close friends and family know, a few work colleagues, but for now at least that's the extent of it. I guess I have a keenly evolved defense mechanism of just not dwelling on shit I can't handle, and not sharing that particular fact means it doesn't become a part of every conversation. For now anyway, it's just not something I would want to show up on Google tied to my nick.