I'm at my early 30s, and I finally had a relationship this year. but after few months in this relationship, I started to miss "lonely" days. my altitude now is rather being alone than being in an imperfect relationship. I listed all things made me happy and I care most, including understanding new computer science theory, being able to draw and play instruments or starting a company. being alone lets me focus on these things and polish myself.

I start to think that relationship might not be an necessity of life. I also don't have the incentive to have kids.