Hey, I'm not here to pass any judgement.

I recognise your symptoms as Obsessively Compulsive.

I'm one of those people who has to hide his symptoms from everyone all the time and disguise them as "oops I think I dropped my keys, I need to go in an out of this doorway 12 times whilst checking it". I waste at least an hour of my life in my OCD rituals, and I'm all too aware of how I come across, to other people as well.

Your love for quantum mechanics might just be that, your love for QM.