Thanks! It was a number of things: knowing the emptiness of social media (for the most part), spending a lot of time out in the National Parks, taking care of my grandmother in her final month of life, dating an older woman for a few months, ayahuasca and bufo ceremonies, and knowing life is short.
All of this happened in the last year, so it was just a perfect storm of things at one time.
I'm living in a new paradigm I feel as I go into my 30's.