I am really sorry. Also, I am on meds right now which make me self absorbed, so sorry if this comes off the wrong way.

You did nothing wrong. There is way too many high expectations to even get approved for SSDI, like needing to be continuously insured.

It is absolute insanity.

I know you have been doing everything you can. Unfortunately, I have been spending this year making plans for leaving the US with my extremely complicated health stuff.

The only reason why I get by is because I have an extremely supportive family.

To have to rely on the "goodwill" of strangers is a cruel existence.

I know that you are not emo. I know this country is killing people. It is believed that the third leading cause of death in the US is preventable medical errors. Plus, when healthcare costs an arm and a leg too...we really are killing people,