Don't be afraid to ask for help, don't be afraid to seek support. We are all feeling this right now, some more than others. I am just some rando on the internet, but if you need to talk to someone let me know.
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People are still people, we are just being told that people are unsafe, with an invisible enemy attacking. I think these lockdowns are too far, I think we can't hide from danger. Most people disagree with me. I can't say I've found a way to deal with this. I am depressed. I take medicine, but that only worked when things were normal. I am more depressed than I can remember, but it feels numb. When I was depressed in the past, I was actively sad, actively self-harming through excessive drug use. Now I am just, existing, like you said. But there is hope. We can get out of this mess, things are getting better. Hopefully things will be better soon.