edit: every day it gets worse, not better. https://esotericnonsense.com
People are still people, we are just being told that people are unsafe, with an invisible enemy attacking. I think these lockdowns are too far, I think we can't hide from danger. Most people disagree with me. I can't say I've found a way to deal with this. I am depressed. I take medicine, but that only worked when things were normal. I am more depressed than I can remember, but it feels numb. When I was depressed in the past, I was actively sad, actively self-harming through excessive drug use. Now I am just, existing, like you said. But there is hope. We can get out of this mess, things are getting better. Hopefully things will be better soon.