Op here ~~ Thank you all for the advice, I've been reading all of your comments and my heart and mind feels more light now. I would like to share some skills I do have:

Programming background in C and python, also bash and powershell programming.

Knowledge of networking and computers in general( I know how to fix hardware in general and know how to deal with Linux and Windows)

My background is in InfoSec, so I Know how to create scripts in general, analyse and mitigate vulnerabilities.

It's my first job, so I'm really anxious on how to do stuff, because I have some theoretical knowledge but never did it in a company, I always did it at home working on some personal labs.

Thank you again, I really appreciate your comments. Love you all