Hoping this pill makes it to the Darknet Markets, I want to die but I don't want to experience pain. I just want a painless exit from this world from where I find no meaning or joy.
Not saying it'll be easy, or even promising it'll work.
I'm just saying I'm glad I gave it a shot. 10/10 would recommend. YMMV.
I feel you. I'm the same, honestly.
That's probably the biggest danger of these "safe", "easy" suicide methods - some people just don't commit suicide because they are too scared of a cruel death, not because they are attached to life. Stuff like this will lower the probability of such a cruel death, making suicide less scary, raising the probability of pulling though with it. Not an easy topic.
But I really hope you can find something in life before you do it, so you don't have to do it ^^'
That being said, I am not going to be the one to say that suicide is never an option.
It's a box full of nitrogen. You can build a less polished version from a home improvement store for a few bucks.
Maybe you will enjoy the build process so much that you won't pull the trigger.
Also, I don't know you, but I'm confident that dying is the wrong solution to whatever problems you're having.