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Start small and spend your weekend and vacation not indoors? :) if you are really afraid of getting away from a job then just bringing some reading material for the job outside could go a long way

Looks like you know what there are some problems (at least in your POV) with your current life.

Take a sabbatical[0] and try to understand what do you need to be a happier person.

[0] in my case it was a sessions of a late night and beer talk with a people who doesnt't know me, but was greatly supportive of my situation (beer hleped there). YMMV.

I sort of feel similarly. I do wonder if it would be more meaningful to engage in a dialog with someone on HN beyond just one off replies.

Just small talks on Discord for example. I'm pcurve#3558

In a way, HN is a forum with built in common interest.

Time spent happily is the best possible way of spending it. Were you happy doing nothing? If so, perhaps it time was well spent.

Sure, see a therapist, find out why that is.