Based on a skim of your Twitter, it looks like you were accused of committing a lewd act with a minor. You believe that this was an unfounded accusation. The police seem to agree because they have decided not to charge you with a crime, but the stigma has hurt you personally and professionally. You want to be charged with a crime so you can prove yourself innocent in court. It also appears that many, many people you know have urged you to seek mental health care, which you perceive as attempts to gaslight you.

I won't discuss the mental health component further because I don't see why you would trust an anonymous HN comment on this topic if you are skeptical of the motivations your friends and family.

Due process and right to a trial don't apply to your situation, since those are rights for people who have been charged with a crime. There is no constitutional right to be charged with a crime on request.

I understand your desire to prove your innocence in court, but even if you were able to do that, it is highly unlikely (read: near zero chance) that it would reverse the damage to your career and personal life. Based on the lack of potential benefit, time spent on trying to be charged with a crime is likely to be time wasted. I suggest that you move on and try to rebuild your life in other ways.