In art school I had a professor tell us something like,” when you’re sick you say you’re going to appreciate all these small things, like smelling the flowers after you had no sense of smell, and make all these changes but by the time you’re better you never do “, it’s something I think about pretty regularly two decades later. I think that telling a bunch of young people they would never do something made it a really great thing to “Rebel against”. Like, at some of my lowest points it’s been the thing that always replays first. How am I going to learn from this crap and find more enjoyment and humility from it.