Well, here is my take on this.

I feel there is a LOT happening in the SW field and it's hard to keep up with all these things.

Every other tool is now AI/ML powered and there is always a better library/framework every alternate week.

Honestly, it takes a toll and made me wonder, what the hell am I doing? Do I have to keep up with all these till I am on this field?

I am now trying to find something tangible to keep me motivated apart from the money.

Farming is something that I found a little therapeutic. It's slow, rigorous but bears fruits.