Ahh yeah I was trying to help you repurpose these circuits given the new information. But perhaps that's not possible.

It sounds very similar to what happens with love. In my experience, at least, when you love someone you build up these circuits that care about the other person and you cannot break them down, it seems. You can ignore them but then there's this part of your brain you're ignoring.

So perhaps you could say you were/are literally in love with the idea.