That’s great context. And I’m very sorry. I’m an optimist, but I’m also a realist, and, yeah, the delta between getting close to making it over and over and having that high of an expectation and then nothing coming to much fruition after so much work would make anyone discouraged.

It takes a ton of effort and courage to have hope in a situation like that. Because you will have to believe something is possible that you have no indication of being possible based on prior experience.

Or you will have to change your outlook to not care about massive financial success as much. But that’s not easy either since that requires a world view and possibly a values shift. Very very hard.

And yeah if I were stuck in that spot, I would feel cursed too and like the higher forces are fucked. It’s totally natural. I really hope for the best! I know you will be good in the end, but I’m sure that’s the last thing you really want to hear since it’s invalidating of how you’re feeling.