very cool read although I wish one of these days I click on a link and it talks about how someone overcame a cult, being doxxed etc and finished their project or ended up getting a PhD so I can believe there is hope
I can't help you with belief and I struggle with it myself at times but there is always hope. Next focus on manifesting your hopes into reality and modifying then in response to everything you learn doing so! :)
Hey bro I was looking through your profile and it seems like you’re in a rough spot. Send me an email, I want to see if I can help. It’s in my profile