Or how about I just don't want to worship anyone? Is there something extreme about this?
That's quite the leap. Surely there is some ground between free market liberalism and the worst examples of state communism. For that matter, it's unclear why Rand and liberalism are being mixed together, as plenty of liberals don't agree with Rand's philosophy.
A certain degree of socialism like for example in Sweden works out quite good or not?
Scandinavian countries are the most capitalistic of Europe - and socialists don't like social democrats. The Scandinavian countries are the latter, not the former.
Socialism means workers owning the means of production, not social democracy ie government programs. No country on the planet is socialist, the most there is is some co-ops existing.