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It was reported that, in a major county near me, about 1 in 2 homes sold last year were to businesses. Individuals are being squeezed from participating in traditional supply and demand markets.

I think therapy is probably the right tool for most people, most of the time. A lot of problems can be solved with professional help that can boost confidence and give a new aim in life that the patient believes they can achieve.

It's the compounding failures over time across social, economic, and physical systems. Avoiding specifics to not turn this into a pseudo therapy session.

Self administered euthanasia

The path as an SE has many roads. I love your post, and I wish I were lucky enough to have had any of that along the path I took.

My first dev job came after mid-way through a PHP course in college. Prior to this, I had also completed courses in Java and C++. At $10/hr (boy was I desperate), I was hired on to replace the outgoing fullstack web dev (basically at an email advertisement spamming company).

I was supposed to "get up to speed" with my replacement within a couple weeks of being hired. It was unwritten and unspoken, but basically I was to become the ad agency's sole fullstack web developer. At the time, I knew zero front-end and the PHP that I did know was murky (5.x) at best.

I had no chance in learning enough to replace the then sole fullstack dev and quit because, I just wasn't ready at the time to absorb front-end web technologies in that short amount of time. Boss warned me that when I give a deadline for a project, it may as well be prophetic - however, I was scared sh1tless giving any kind of projection on any kind of project with me as the sole developer doing things I've never done before; it seemed to me to be absurd.

Fast forward a few years, I just couldn't land any programming/web job because my experience didn't line up with what was requested - even when I thought I was around 70%+ qualified. After a while, I got fed up with the esoteric requirements, even for junior positions. It's exhausting reading through countless job listings trying to find something that may fit. So, to this day, I just code for fun - like a locally hosted movie server that I prefer over Plex. Sorry for the ramble. I'm estranged by the industry in regards to hiring for junior positions.

I'm 45 and have dealt with similar, isolation issues. No kids. There are biological reasons when we are infants that require the human touch and care to survive (other animals exhibit this as well - whereas, the lack of parental care significantly increases mortality). I posit that even into late adulthood, these biological needs are still there, even if dampened. I've never heard nor read anyone regret receiving a sincere hug from someone whom they valued.

I guess what I'm getting at is, if there are no parents or friends that can fill this role for you, then I think the next best thing is that you fill that role for someone else who may be in need - if they reciprocate, that void will begin to fill.

I'm a 44 year old male and also have had trouble with generating meaningful friendships. I don't have any acquaintances. I'm not shy or socially awkward (I think?). I suppose I'd consider myself a rare reader of ycombinator that has always earned near too or under the poverty line.

I can see that people like me might try to cling onto any sort of positive opportunity for a relationship outside family - and in that process, absolutely destroy whatever potential was there.

I guess what I'm saying is that relationships can get weird fast. Boundaries must be understood either implicitly or explicitly for a plutonic relationship to flourish.

I'm drinking a 12-pack of beer as I type this, alone. Been doing this for over a decade. I don't like drinking with others. This is normal for me. I don't like most people, because most people come off as either asshole or idiot. I'm self aware enough to realize that I too will at times be either an asshole or idiot to someone else. As much as I try not to be.

Speaking for myself, virtually all self administered methods used can be quite painful with an uncertain outcome, due to imperfect information. As I started going through an attempt, as the pain increased, I backed off and realized I had no idea what I was doing and needed to stop. I suppose people that attempt suicide don't see another way of solving whatever they perceive to be the doomsday singularity in their life.

I could easily be a statistic in this report. Unemployed for a long period of time and living with people who would rather ignore me than watch a show together or share cooked meals. The madness grows slowly stronger and does not relent.