it was mostly trying to manage paying for as much as i could on my own. My parents made enough for me not to be eligible for FA, but not enough to pay my tuition.
I pick up the fastest when I'm shown, but that doesn't really teach me much, it only shows me how to do that one specific thing, so I usually learn by practicing over and over, until I'm comfortable it.
I'd like to be successful, not sure if I'm passionate about it, or just afraid of ending up a middle-aged guy with no future. I have become motivated to do something, but unfortunately I still don't what direction to point this energy towards. I hope that made sense. Please feel free to ask as much as you'd like, after all, you guys are the ones offering to guide me.