There are times for disillusion in everyone’s life.
Look at it as an opportunity. A moment in the now - where you are not only open to, but also craving, for a new direction or a different mindset on the direction to move forward.
I strongly believe in correct forward.
That means valuing your previous experiences, valuing feedback from others in the present, and striving for better in the future.
I would say you are two thirds there buddy!