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I think Zossima's arc from Brothers Karamazov feeds Messiah complex better than Idiot :)

I'd only recommend to take out Notes from the underground and replace it with Idiot, which Dostoevsky himself liked the most of all his works. Devils and Gambler are just below these three. Also, Humiliated and insulted allegedly made Nietzsche cry. But that one I haven't read (yet).

while 'pigs' != 'fly':

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Made me chuckle!

In Dune[0], they had Butlerian Jihad[1], revolution against an AI of the sorts. Hopefully in real world they'll outlaw nuclear weapons.

[0] - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dune_(novel)

[1] - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Butlerian_Jihad

I'm currently reading Steppenwolf by Hesse and it has me thinking a lot. Main character (Harry Haller) seems to portray being in one of those "be careful what you wish for" situations. One aiming for individuality and independence at the cost of alienating people close to him. It is his desire, his goal in the beginning and ends up being his punishment, his prison. Maybe I found the book at the right time of my life (25).

I settled it with support team via ticket, thanks for the offer though!

I have to recommend Vox Populi for Civ5.

https://www.reddit.com/r/civvoxpopuli/

Community Patch Project & Community Balance Patch. Still under regular development, a lot of (if not all) base game issues are ironed out. After playing this I couldn't force myself to endure Civ6 and its many flaws.

Transire suum pectus mundoque potiri. Life is unfair, a lot of rules are arbitrary, phony people thrive. Get over it, get over yourself. Focus on something worthy and specific, and grind.

This is dangerous. Complimented with _virtual moral high ground_, a lot of stupid people have a voice. Reminds me of [0]. Female porn star said she didn't want to shoot films with male porn stars who did gay porn prior. Of course many people found that outrageous. Cyber bullying made her kill herself. One would think women should have freedom to decide for themselves who they should have sex with. Ironic.

[0] - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/August_Ames#Death

Getting that much needed 4.8 rating, reminds me of certain dark reflective surface.

Trouble is there are no amphetamines as meds in my backwards country.

I tried all variations on the theme - different sleep patterns (getting up early at fixed time, waking naturally), diets (low carb, no processed food with excess sugar etc etc, workouts (running, working with weights), no coffee, just 1 cup of coffee, max 2-3 cups of coffee... sadly without significant effect. What I also notice that my lack of focus is not tied just to productivity - I can't even finish Lord of the Rings movie in one sitting, and I LOVE it.

Have you ever tried medication? For me personally it's even worse when working for others. Even went to the therapist, but she said they don't prescribe stuff like Adderall (don't even have it), and solution is just therapy in form of talking, which had zero effect (she asked questions I asked myself when I was 15). Really curious about Adderall.

Younger HN reader here. Wow. Thank you so much for this.

How important is GPA?

I will soon get my Master's degree in CS, but it is via the path of least resistence. Therefore GPA is not shiny. I decided that spending my finite time and energy can be better, so I concentrated on coding (my own projects) and socializing, sports and games etc.

When I studied for exams, at point where I knew that I was going to pass, I shifted to other projects.

Next year when I join the workforce and start looking for jobs, will low GPA bite me?

Another Croatian - Serbian conflict regarding his ancestry in 5,4,3 ...

Kidding aside, what would people like him achieve if they had resources of today, computers and internet...

J.D. Salinger, Syd Barrett... I hate it when pop culture romanticizes isolation. These people need help. Good example is Christopher McCandless (movie: Into The Wild), whose decomposing body weighed only 30 kilograms when it was found.

On one hand you have Zarathustra, the sage coming down from mountain after 10 years of meditation to spread the wisdom. On the other hand you have everyone else, decaying, dying slowly and suffering in silence.

Boy who cried 'wolf'...

Maybe I didn't express myself accurately (English is not my mother tongue). I don't think depression is simple thing, banality to be solved by philosophy. I don't know how you read that from my post. I said it helped me _curb_ some instincts to 'let myself go' when things aren't going my way. Regarding 'cowards' - again, you misunderstood. I meant that people who take the slow suicide path are cowards. It's a subset of mental illnesses as a much bigger sphere.

1. It takes courage to take the blows life gives you and keep going, ("Do it for her" photo) 2. It takes courage to actively take your life, hurt yourself physically 3. It _doesn't_ take any courage to just let yourself go and fade away

I've had close family members 2 and 3

"...my mother told me she thought he’d known he was having heart attacks but chose to ignore them as a way of killing himself. This, I think, is putting an overly heroic sheen on it, but the interpretation doesn’t surprise me. My mother worshiped my father, and there’s something noble about a slow, plausibly deniable suicide. "

I find it to be an extreme form of cowardice. I had a couple of close family members who always used to 'emotionally blackmail' when something wasn't how they wanted it. And it wasn't manipulation - they genuinely suffered. It was horrible. Like an inescapable black cloud. My uncle did it for so long, ignored his health issues on purpose that he eventually died. He wasn't even too old. I don't even remember exact cause, but it was something simple, couple of days in hospital and some pills would have made it go away. I had similar inclinations, but adopting stoicism helped me curb it.

So for example if I create a product using React, something social-ish and it gets really popular. Facebook decides they like it and could easily implement something like that themselves. I find it to be blatant copy of my stuff. Nothing I can do there, right?

Location: Central Europe

Remote: Exclusively

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Python (experience with OpenCV and Django) \

JavaScript (experience with React) \

Linux (bash etc)

General knowledge of data structures, algorithms, architectures..

Résumé/CV: email if needed

Email: antonio.b1607 at gmail dot com

I am still student (CS Master's in progress), willing to work part time (20-30 hours a week), $7 an hour.

Experience level: still consider myself "junior", but learning constantly.

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Life is more than career and income. You are not your job. Analyse other life choices. Are you with a wrong person? Do you think you let somebody down? Do you have to repair some damage? Are you giving anything away? Are you grateful?

-"go meet people" (how?)-

TLDR: Don't overthink it, just start with smalltalk.

Go to gym. Work out, simply talk to people. Go to a bar. Have a drink, simply talk to people. Look up amateur sport activities in your area (hiking, trekking, whatever). Join, participate. Simply talk to people. Why do I keep saying 'simply talk'? Because in the end it _is_ really simple. Loneliness is consequence of overthinking. If you don't feel confident, work on your image a bit. Some muscle mass and 'cool clothes' can do wonders (I know it sounds superficial, but hey it's truth).