sanzomebe

I start off in a new job feeling pretty ok, but quickly it just devolves into procrastination and anxiety. I feel to anxious to open my emails so I don't reply to anything and don't get anything done.

I actually took a remote job (hah) thinking that maybe getting out of the office environment would help. Nope, now all communication was online it felt even more stressful. They thought I'd been hit by a car or something when I just stopped contacting them.

Now my resume looks like swiss cheese and it's hard to even get interviews now. I mean, why would you hired someone who has so many short stints at so many different jobs.

I went to a top school as well, so I have to put up seeing my schoolmates making their millions and living lavish lifestyles. I just want a simple life and a job that I can do for more than a year.

Not great. I'm in my early 30's and I've never been able to keep a job for more than a few months. I never managed to perform to my true abilities. I've been to doctors and therapists and they tell me I'm not sick. In a way, I kind of wish I was depressed or had a regular label so I could at least have an explanation.

I never tell my friends about my issues. I can't even imagine how that conversation would go: "What happened about your last job?" "Oh, I can't reply to emails..."