Another hypothesis I had that all this way down started was the introduction of a smartphone into my life. It was 2012 and it correlates with my continous increase of laziness. I was 19 then. Could just be a coincidence. But maybe not...
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I can also observe this very often in other aspects of life: I find a new technology, buy stuff for it and when the stuff arrives at home to start playing around with it, I do not even open the package because in the end I'm thinking "not worth it to waste time on"... which actually ends up in really wasting time by just sitting on the couch and doing nothing. This exact same feeling I have when I have an idea for a new project but then I don't even start it.
It goes that far that even start to watch a new good movie, which was one of my biggest hobbies once, seems to be a too big barrier for me.
My life goals once were to have a family, a nice house and a healthy life. They are still there too, but somehow the "I need to do new things all the time" added up to the list, and this is contrary to the family and house goal. Maybe this confuses me, driving myself into two different directions at the same time?
The "start somewhere" is probably actually the question. Where?
Maybe I reached my goals too quick and without much hassle at all and therefore can't really value what I have.
Changing my life circumstances again would probably not solve it. I always loved and needed to do new things. If I would quit now, I feel like I would lose all credibility. I mean, who wants to hire someone who even leaves his own company only because he is not happy? If there would be at least a reason... But there isn't. Even financials are working fine.
Sorry. Just spitting out what is in my head, unsorted and unstructured. I'm not even sure what I'm asking for with this post.
What's wrong with me?