taway060619

White nationalists are the exact same thing on the other side. They’re awful, awful people who are trying to make others feel inferior. No part of me gives and quarter to those people. My hatred of being called a devil due to the color of my skin does NOT align me with those who want to do the same thing to others. Not at all.

And I’d rather be depressed forever than give any of those people any sort of solace. No.

I’ve been feeling a pretty intense sort of depression and loneliness for the last month or so.

The feelings of “you’re a white male and you work in tech and you are wealthy you are a SATAN” is just becoming too much :(.

I volunteer a tremendous amount in education, where I’m the only male I generally even see in my field, and I constantly have to listen to my coworkers gleefully talk about how excited they are at how few young boys show up to our events. I hear them blatantly express disdain when a couple do.

Its so, so sad. I try getting away from the news, but then it creeps into my life anyway.

I’m not some devil because of my genitals, my sexual orientation, or the color of my skin. I volunteer so much of my time specifically to the homeless and less fortunate, I give so much money to charity, I do so much stuff in my community...and yet I just have to hear almost constantly that I am everything wrong with the world because I am an evil, cis, white, monogamous, straight male. I tick every single box of bad guy it seems like there is, and I don’t want to be the bad guy. I actually try really hard to be a nice guy.

It just makes me so so sad :(. And if I ever do even mention that, it just makes it even worse, hence the throwaway account.