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No doubt. I am just comparing Syria with Ukraine :)

Good one :)

Acceptance is quite difficult while our entire culture primes us to be uber successful in all our pursuits. But humility and doing one's best is a virtue to achieve.

I guess Ukraine is quite fine, Syria perhaps not. I have always wanted to live in a European country for a while. I have spent a few years in the US and liked it (Not an American). I feel Denmark, Germany or Norway are places I would love to stay and work. That's actually something I would be excited about.

Thanks for a detailed explanation! I really appreciate it.

You are right in saying that I have not tried my hands at startups. I do have side projects that worked for some time and then were put on GitHub as open source (they were not particularly earth shattering ideas).

My inclination has been towards Physics and computational biology. I have been a science fan since childhood, always wondering about the intricacies of human body and the humbling vastness of space.

I am keeping a low profile for now and will focus on the bare minimum necessary and will take further decisions from thereon.

Yep, that's the bare basic I am trying to do, and it's helping in a very limited way.

That sounds quite cool! Thanks!

Also, are there any other threads where people have asked similar questions? I have searched HN and found a few, but if you know of any, please do share.

Absolutely, if not here at HN, there are multiple subreddits at reddit.com that will help you find some contacts that are local to you.

Please PM me if you need help with it.

The urge to commit suicide is not strong, it's an amusing thought that crosses the mind. I am highly unlikely to do it because I would rather kill myself for a cause than committing suicide, like getting into military and killing some terrorists. Seems I might have a hero complex :) So I won't go down and out silently.

Thanks. I have an appointment with a professional next week. Hopefully he will be able to help.

I have picked up meditation and gyming. They add a temporary respite, but the excitement of going to work is eclipsed by the anxiety of making a big difference.

I have asked the WHY. I have been quite ambitious since my childhood. I have had grand plans to be a neuro-surgeon, but it failed, then I wanted to be a physicist, but couldn't, then I loved programming and made it into a career. I love everything about it, but I am not as good as I would like to be. My ambitions sometimes hurt me. I wonder at how Elon Musk, Richard Branson and Bill Gates do it, and how I can't. It's quite infuriating.

Thanks for your kind words.

That's a bit radical, given my risk appetite. It will take energy equal to splitting the nucleus of an atom to make me do it. I am not sure if I'll be able to. But if could I will definitely.

Thanks for your kind words.