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> Can I ask you how, and why, you do this? I'm genuinely curious as even back when I was your age I would be fatigued after maybe half of that time.

Sure thing. I'm a dropout, I have plenty of time. I'm not sleeping much, most days 4 hours of sleeping is enough for me. I don't know the exact reason why, how I feel deep inside, I just enjoy what I do and I never felt fatigued till now.

Thank you for taking your time and writing this.

> Keep in mind you're earning a six figure salary doing over double what is expected at a "normal" 40h/week job. If you consider it as an hourly rate, is it worth sacrificing your health over?

Yeah, I'm well aware of that I'm putting more than 40h a week for my job. In 20/30 hours I can finish my tasks and attend meetings. On the other 50 hours most of the time I'm doing things that is not part of the sprint/my tasks in work, I'm doing them as a hobby, I enjoy coding. I agree that it is not worth sacrificing my health for it, that is why I'm looking for a way out in this situation.

> Not a rhetorical question, btw.

I'm sorry if it wasn't clear. English is my second language, even though I'm comfortable with discussing technical topics, having a conversation in colloquial English, I'm not very comfortable with turning my anxiety into a story.

> How long have you been smoking pot?

I've been a smoker since 16. I was doing it only at parties and holidays. But lately I've become a daily smoker.

I'm waiting for my meetings to end every day to smoke some and chill out without worrying about the things happening around me.

> It took me around 6 months of no usage to get to a point where the fear and anxiety of being at and doing work went away.

That's right, I know it messes the hormones up so badly. I'm gonna try quitting it for a month to see how it goes.