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Never assume you are smart.

I like the guy who commented how hilarious it is to get paid well to write company crapware. Feels good, probably the only positive aspect, and not even a given tbh, not everyone is paid well in this crapware field.

I agree with you.

Lived alone and in different countries myself, and not eager to isolate like that again cause it started to suck after some time. Also the racism i've experienced and the cultural differences don't help much, but idk right now.

I've been saving for years but no "fuk u" money by any means, but no responsibilities either (luckily).

This hospital work that you suggest is probably to feel useful by helping others i suppose.

:) Well not exactly eating through savings, just feel bad about only spending without earning.

GJ. Maybe i will also find work one day that sucks less than the corporate crap i've been through. These environments have really caused me some undesired biochemical reactions i think.

Being unable to get out of bed... i haven't experienced that and i sure hope i don't. What you've been through sounds like hell.

> Honestly, it takes a toll and made me wonder, what the hell am I doing? Do I have to keep up with all these till I am on this field?

Decided not to keep up anymore, apart from being competent at interviews as much as possible. ex. learn what they're asking about kafka, aws, kuber etc and that's it