thrwaway

this is very true, in the sense that in high school i was a very shy person that other people picked upon. on coming to college [in a different area from where i went to hs], people were from different places, and i didn't have a background as that insert random/weird label here kid, and as a result being my authentic self, i made nice friends, and no one really cared about what i was or was not in the past.

I freelance to make bank. I have enough money to get by for a couple of months, or live beyond my means for 2 months and blow it all. That is the question that i keep asking myself, because I went through all the old stuff on HN that suggested traveling, or helping others and volunteering. I don't have an answer, and I am just freaking out because of that.

Thanks man. I usually run 60-90 minutes 2x week, so running calms me down, and that is something that I force myself to do, but the other stuff doesn't happen. I guess that is what i figured after reading all this self help stuff that I ultimately need to figure stuff out myself, but I thought there might be other folks that could point me in the right direction.

I told her that i needed sometime alone to figure stuff out. I still like her, and she still likes me, she tried to help, but sometimes I just don't want people around me. I thought that was understood, but clarifying again.