I've considered that. I've considered applying for a job as an auto mechanic. I like working with my hands. However, other than basic stuff like changing oil and spark plugs, I'm relatively uneducated about working on cars.
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> but the reality is that the point of working is to get money so you can fund your life.
When I left X, I got some severance pay. So my life right now is essentially funded, and I still feel lost.
No, I haven't been to a doctor. I assume this is all mental. Is it possible I've developed a chronic, physical illness? What would be an example?
I really hate the idea of taking mind-altering medication regularly. I was diagnosed with ADHD as a child (erroneously, I believe) and took medication everyday for years. A few years ago, I deemed it no way to live and weened myself off of it.
As a transitionary step, though, I guess I'd be open to it.
Ah, yes. I didn't touch on sleep. It has wavered over the months. It's better now, but not perfect. Often I sleep more than 8 hours, even though I have alarms set for 0800 and 0900. I do use melatonin when I have difficulty falling asleep. I think a lack of a "need" to wake up at a certain time (for work) induces laziness in me.