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I will never ever use a Samsung again. It was my fault for not checking the warranty. I should have known better when a 1000+ flagship phone only has a one year warranty it can't be very good, right?
I now just buy cheap phones cause that experience ruined me. Their support was so bad and they didn't care at all about the forums of people with the exact same issues. I don't know how this company is top seller. This surprises me so much.
I cannot wait for my wildflower plot to shoot up. This year I turned over about 10m x 10m of bermuda grass and sewed a southeastern wildflower mix. I left the center of it grass and a path into it. I plan to go lay down and meditate in the wildflower patch while the bees zoom over head.
Every single year the game became more difficult as more people studied and I continued to move up into higher and higher stakes. At one point I looked at how much money I had made/compared to how much I hated what I was doing and decided that I was done. People around me never understood why I quit because they knew me and the amount of income I had made, but the thing is no one can understand what it is to live on a grinders schedule like that.
I would get up at 10-11AM study the hands from the previous day to make sure I was playing correctly mentally, read over new material, review a partners hands as we both did each others to confirm playstyle and decisions were correct, around 3PM I would start scouting tables across various levels looking for soft players that I had datamined information about. Around 4-5PM I would start playing and continue to add tables with soft players and immediately leave any tables that didn't contain any soft players or they had busted. This table hopping and monitoring is absolutely exhausting, but critical to being as profitable as possible.
Repeat this until about 11PM. Then go to sleep until 4AM, get up and play against the players on the other side of the world as they were starting to play loose. Play against them until about 7AM, then go to sleep and get up around 11. Repeat. Do this for 4 years and almost anyone will decide enough is enough even with the amount of income I was making back then. The only rest I took was on weekends, just to remove myself mentally from the exhaustion.
Of course poker is much tougher now then it was then. I wouldn't even dream of trying to play now. I was maybe upper 85-90% player, now I would be in the lower 50%.
There is something to be said about making hardware and software interface so easy like they have done. I would have never achieved this in the 3 month period as quickly as I did without Arduino. Super excited for this new Uno.
I am not sure I am even going to be able to get calls without wifi calling on. Kind of a nightmare.
Thanks for your help.
Eventually it just became natural to do other thing instead.
I still have discord, but I am super careful to make sure I only stay in channels when I need them and then immediately leave when I no longer have a use for it.
Life is mysterious, confusing and lovely all at the same time. Focusing on the impossible big picture of what you should be doing, and where you should be is a trap. Enjoy each unique day the best you can. Sure you don't know what you need to do to be successful tomorrow, but I am sure you can think of things you can do today to be successful; even if its just helping a neighbor or a parent. Define success for each day based on its circumstances. When you fail, write down why and move onward.
Every little success adds up to a new mindset.
Good luck.
Instead of searching for a job, search for a passion. You seem to have parents who want to support you and believe in you. That is more than most have.
I don't know where to tell you to start, but if anything be a little easier on yourself. The fact you made this post alone shows that you don't want to quit, which is a major factor in being successful.
I was talking with someone about this and he said to me, what defines a child as your son or daughter? Maybe think about this for a while and then talk with your spouse about what reasons she doesn't want a child? Maybe it is a fear of childbirth, maybe she doesn't want to nurse, or deal with a 3 year old. There are many young wonderful children at all ages that could use a loving father and mother.