OTAThirty

thanks, see you soon.

30 is hitting hard on me and I agree with the other posters here and yourself, am stressing but its just a number!

I have a need, its simple, I need to be financially independent. This doesn't mean I need multi-million pounds and be able to afford lambo's. I am a basic person, so for me, to have enough income to live, a house paid off and little excess money to go out every month although this latter isn't a requirement, considering I have gone out every weekend for 2 years and have spent no more than a couple hundred pound. I don't drink and my friends don't let me ever pay for theirs.

Am always enjoying life, but I want to be more successful and run my own startup. I make a good living, have all the necessities in life, which being a basic person, is a roof, a set of clothes and some bread and water (some chicken thrown in ofcourse..lol). I live a basic life and have excess amounts of cash to invest into the AIM etc.

Here's what I missed out...am not having fun. A 9-5, I can not stand but lucky for me, I don't do have to do this. I go in when I want and finish when I want, my employers know I get the job done and just leave me to it. However, working for an organisation which its not allowed to make a profit is dragging me down.

I had the motivation to create great products managing teams, highly successful business models and double/triple profits for my employers. This may have left me feeling sh*t if my employers cashed in and I didnt, but most times, I was rewarded heavily. I have dont this for employers, now I want to do this for me.

Currently, I just keep a non-profit organisation plodding along, and so long as we break even at the end of the year, everyone keeps their job and we plod along!

This was important to me 2 years ago. My marriage had ended and I needed a stable thing, with the huge mortgage burdon she had left me with. I still have this morgage burdon, one I could seriously do without considering I dont care to live in a house or a caravan but with the market at an all time low, am stuck in a position where I will loss over 40K if I sell now. All my cash and not the banks so am not in negative-equite with them. You'll think am crazy here, but I dont care about cash, and have considers loosing 50K to get out. To me, its only money and hapiness is definately more important, however, when I evaluated my life once I sell, I simply end up renting and paying the same as the mortgage, so there's no point. How can I have fun in what I currently do is the question am asking myself now?

Thanks for helping me reach this far.

PS: Am not in London but can be at the next event as am currently touring N.Africa. Can you let me know when the next one is happening after this Thursday? and where abouts in London as I dont come there often.

THANK YOU

Thanks for the advise, although I disagree with you when you say 'Having ideas is not a skill'. Having idea's is a massive skill and I found this out when working on two great startup. Coders who just code, simply could not think out of the scope of their languages and coding skills, hence they create a great product, but could not think of a single way to monetize it/improve the design aspects of it. I sat back and watched an entire team of very talented coders and PM's battle it out in the board room and yest, no result.

I don't think am brilliant, in fact ATM, the exact opposite, am hitting a very depressive time and don't think much of myself at all, but I do remember that day very clearly and when the arguing stopped I simply said, How about we do this and see how we got on, not one person including the founders, had though of it and not one of them disagreed. Anyone out there who has idea's should consider this a massive asset and I encourage it greatly in all types of work places. Too many thinks are done, because "we've always dont it this way".

Not all idea's are great either and one should know this when throwing idea's to a group of people, accepted criticism is a massive part of being an 'idea person'

Again, thanks for the advise above.

Thanks for your great effort here, its true, port capacity is an issue and one that needs solving, so I can give what you've suggested, a try. Totally agree with you about Sally and John, does my head in. If I have to write one more "hello world" in a new language I am trying out..lol

I do love coding, I can get immersed in my code to the point where, 10-15 hour stints head down, not an issue, especially helps being an insomniac!

I have done some Python already and agree, its ' the teaching language of choice'. again, I will try the OpenFlashChart route and see how I get on.

One more issue I would love to address is CSS...Am lost with this one, is it required? or should I simply ignore this for now altogether.

Thank you for your advise.