depressedfather

I feel completely isolated.

Boulder

Maybe they sense some unease. They don't see the tears because they don't really see or hear me. I'll make a call tomorrow. Thank you.

My wife is unable, unwilling, to significantly change her irrational spending habits.

Thank you. It's been 40 years. When I was a teenager I didn't think I'd last that long. I will seek a therapist tomorrow. I don't quite understand how I can remain productive at work and everything else is a vast sea of sadness and anger.

I'm afraid I'm a weight on them.

I'm glad you've overcome this. For my part it's been 30 years, probably 40 if my childhood memories make any sense. I've started to notice that my daughters switch from laughter to sadness when their gaze reaches me. I'm not sure staying around is helping them.

Thank you for all the responses. I took a large life insurance policy a few weeks ago, but I'll look for a therapist on Monday. There's a hundred in Boulder, I feel paralyzed, I don't have time to figure them out. The few friends I have don't hear me. I do exercise and team sport, I eat decently well, those are not the causes.

A long time ago. It didn't help.

I'm like her dad. Reading her story may have altered my path, for the sake of my daughters, for a bit longer, I guess.

I design software, I code, test and deploy. They think my work is good. It doesn't matter. I work until I'm tired and then I sleep. I hide my tears from my family. There's no joy in any of these projects, and I've lost all interest in my past side projects. I work so much I barely see my daughters before they go to sleep. If I stop working we'll be bankrupt within months.